Sunday, January 02, 2011
Kicking up Operation Booty Shrink!
As any of my long time readers know, I have been struggling with my weight for a while now. I am in the process of losing over 100 lbs and I am halfway there. The last year, I have been at a standstill weight wise. The majority of the weight I lost came off in the first three months of my job as a chef in a wine bar. It was a grueling situation. Half of my kitchen was upstairs and I was up and down all day/night long. I worked long hours and the weight melted off. During that time, green smoothies kept me going. I would drink 2 quarts of savory smoothie every day with so much ginger and cayenne that it almost made me ill, but I must have been tapping into something that knew I needed that level of anti-inflammatory foods to keep me healthy through that period.
So, back to this last year. I changed jobs, worked as a chef in a health food store deli where I was doing a lot of gluten free baking and I developed a taste for sugar. Ironic isn't it that it was at the Health Food Store that I began eating sugar in larger portions? I'm more active that I used to be and I would gain and lose 10 lbs over and over and as this year ended, I weigh the same as I did at this time last year.
The most amazing thing happened to me in the past 6 months. I began getting bodywork done. I experienced an abusive childhood and had stored so much trauma within my cells that it was making me sick. Bodywork helped to release that and over the last 180 days the transformation within ME has been mindblowing. I have truly finally let go of so many toxic emotions and thought patterns. I have done what I call a ton of Mental Housecleaning. During this time, I realized that I was holding onto the weight because I needed the protection during this time. I became grateful for what the fat gave me. I am grateful.
.. but I am stronger now, so I am ready in mind, body and soul to release my armor.
It feels so liberating!
I have done a lot of thinking about food and how I want to approach this and what I realized the other day is that in all areas of my life, I want joy, so I am approaching this weight release with joy in mind. I will eat what I want and crave and enjoy every damn bite! I am going to focus on smaller portions and 4 mini meals of around 400 calories a piece and an optional 200 calorie snack if I am hungry.
I'm not going to to crazy counting calories and plugging every single morsel into fitday. The rule of thumb I'm finding for food is that a cup of bean based soup and 1/2 cup of grain and as many veggies as I want and a couple teaspoons of fat in that mixture = around 400 calories. In the beginning I will probably crunch the numbers more to make sure I am not fooling myself and eating more.
I am tweeting everything I eat on a daily basis and I will blog at least 5 days a week. I am going to checkout a TOPS meeting where I will be held accountable by a weekly weigh in.
I hope that if any of you are in the same boat here, that you will come along for a ride and we can be a support to each other!
It is possible to eat healthy and delicious food and lose weight!
The soup you see is a Smoky Cauliflower 10 minute microwave soup. I took some Sunflower Cheddar Spread ( Recipe coming up tomorrow ), some leftover roasted cauliflower ( that I scored for $.69 a head ) garlic and veggie stock. Microwaved it and pureed with a hand blender. Meanwhile, my leftover New Years Day Black Eyed Peas and Greens were turned into a burger and served open faced with Nappa Cabbage ( which I scored for $.69 too!), mushrooms, scallions, pickles, mustard and ketchup.
On a side note, I am having much better luck shopping every other day than once a week. I realize that I am very fortunate because my local store, Market Basket offers really good deals. If you have more than one store in your town, it really pays to shop around and compare prices. Take a notebook ( or even begin by looking at their deals online or in the circular that comes in the mail )..and list prices.
Have a wonderful, booty shrinking day!